I’m so restless right now. I want to do something, but I don’t know what. I mean, I have so much I could be doing - like studying, but I can’t focus on it. So I’ll write a loong post…;)
I’ve had an interesting week, anyway. My mom and sister went on a road trip across the country with my mom’s best friend. I couldn’t go because of school and work. =( So I basically had the house to myself for most of the week (my dad works in a different city and stays there during the week). They left Monday and they’ll be back next Thursday. The first day after they left I cried for an hour. It makes me sound lame, but I think I have attachment issues or something. I like being by myself and I love being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want. But, I felt like I was 6 years old and my parents had left me with the scary babysitter. Except there was no babysitter and I have to take care of myself. Which you’d think I could do since I am 21!
For the most part, I’ve actually done a lot better than I thought I might. I haven’t had any more major crying spells (which I tend to get if I’m in the house alone) and I’ve had fun playing my music, studying, and watching whatever TV shows I want.
The one thing that’s been a little bit of a challenge is, of course, eating. We stocked up on plenty of food and there are a couple of times where I’ll eat out when I’m at school or work. Now I have to admit, that this past month I’ve been feeling “fat”, I have no idea why. I’ve lost a tiny amount of weight and had to deal with the some ED guilt. On top of that, not being able to see what and how much my sister is eating is really hard for me. I feel like I’m eating soo much more than she will be eating. I feel like a horrible person whenever I mention how much I rely on her and compare myself to her. It makes me sound so controlling and jealous - I’m not, honestly! I just have this (irrational) fear that since she’s on the road, she won’t be eating as much and will lose weight, blah, blah, blah. But that’s no reason for ME to lose weight. I can’t control what she does, I can only control what I do - I need to believe this.
Anyyway, I actually have been eating pretty well and trying to gain back those couple of pounds. I’ve tried out some new recipes!
I decided to make pancakes the yesterday!
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I followed the this this amazing girl's (if you read this Jess - you are one of my blog idols, lol!). I made a few modifications/substitutions because I didn’t have some of the ingredients. I used flaxseed instead of chia, oats instead of wheat germ, and cloves instead of nutmeg. They turned out great! I made a yogurt-orange juice-maple syrup topping to go with them. Yum!
They were so good that I had to make them again today! This time I used some almond meal as a sub for the wheat germ, strawberry yogurt, and cinnamon only. Reeally good. =) Unfortunately, I didn’t realize that I had too many pictures saved in my phone, so it didn’t save the picture. =(
Then I got creative and decided to create my own “recipe” for lunch. I had a bag of mixed greens (kale, mustard greens, spinach) that needed to be used up. So I sautéed a clove of garlic and some turkey (although if you’re a vegetarian, you obviously don’t have to use it) in olive oil. Then I removed that from the pan and added the greens. I let those cook down with some water, then added the turkey and garlic back in with some spices. I was going for sort of an Indian theme, so I put in a little curry, cumin, coriander, and black pepper. I decided to make a sort of sauce with yogurt, lemon juice, and more of the spices to stir in at the last minute. Well, it was successful! The only thing I wasn’t crazy about was the yogurt itself. I only had vanilla so the taste of the sauce was a bit too sweet. I would def. use plain yogurt, if you try something like this!
Again my phone was being dumb, so here’s a representation instead:
Obviously, this is not all I ate, but these are some of the more interesting things.
Well, that was a monstrous post! I’m off to do a bit more studying and then sleeep!
I hope all of you are doing well and thank you for being so wonderful to me!