Today I ate an egg yolk.
Or most of one anyway. You see, I can eat scrambled eggs with the yolks mixed in ok, but an over-hard or fried egg yolk? Not happening. But today I ate it. :)
I've been hearing/reading alot about intuitive eating and it makes me think about my own habits. As much as I hate to admit it, I probably wouldn't say I'm an intuitive eater. I eat my three meals a day, but it's usually regardless of when/if I'm hungry. If I get hungry at 4:00 I'll wait until dinnertime to eat. If I'm not hungry at breakfast, I eat it anyway because I know I need to. I don't know whether this is healthy or unhealthy, but, honestly, it seems to work for me. My weight only fluctuates 3 or 4 pounds up or down at any given time. I might not always eat guilt free, but usually I enjoy my meals because I know I'm giving my body what it needs and, quite frankly, I love food!
Maybe, I'm still being "safe" about it, even after all these years. Maybe I'll eventually learn how to eat whatever I want, whenever I want. I would love to be able to listen to my body. But, right now, I'm still not sure what my body is telling me. I DO know what ED is telling me and I have to fight that with whatever I can. And being a little more strict about my eating is how I do that right now.
I'm definitely not trying to attack intuitive eating or anything like that. I think it's a wonderful thing, something that is great to aspire to. I've just been feeling rather guilty that I "can't" do it and I had get it out of my system. So I really, really hope no one takes offense to this - I love all you guys too much!
On a brighter note: we're halfway through the week! Only a few more days until a brand new year. Wow, 2011 - makes me feel old, lol. I hope everyone has a wonderful New Years!<3