Hello my dears!
This week has been quite a rollercoaster. Happy, sad, impatient, excited...every emotion, every day. But, that's ok - I think it's healthier to feel all this then push it aside.
The frowns: Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself. I've been weight restored and more or less "recovered" for around 4-5 years now, but I still have stages where I restrict and want to exercise all the time. I feel like my stomach is sticking out 5 inches or something and like my thighs are huge. I know this isn't true, of course, but the feeling has happened a few days this week.
I have so much to study, but I've been easily distracted lately and I can't focus on anything. I'm not depressed, I don't really know what's going on. I've been doing fine in school so far, butI'm worried that it's going to catch up with me during year-ends.
I'm really getting anxious about having to drive. You see, I have this irrational fear of driving. I don't really know why because I've never been in any accidents. I do have my permit (actually this is my third one because I keep letting it expire). It expires in March so I HAVE to practice and take the test before then (I'm 21 for goodness sake's). Maybe you guys could keep me accountable? Please? ;)
The smiles: I love practicing and preparing for the rink's Christmas show. So much fun!
I had a take home final in one of my classes! It was one of the harder ones too so that will free up some time.
I think I got most of my Christmas shopping done (Thanks to online shopping ;)
My sister and I made some delicious cupcakes (if I do say so myself). We used a cake mix (but you could use any homeade cake receipe instead) and replaced the water called for with fresh-squeezed pomagranate juice. They turned a kinda weird purple color, but they were tasty. My sister also stirred some pomagranate juice and extra powedered sugar into the frosting. We used a can because we didn't have any ingrediants for homeade, but next time I want to make it from scratch. I don't really like canned frosting. But, it did turn pink!
Well, this turned into a rather long post! But, that's ok because I think I'm going to take a break from posting for 2-3 weeks until I'm finished with school for the winter. I REALLY need to concentrate on that. I'll still be reading all your blogs (I love you guys!), but I might not comment or post. Sooo...that's all for now and I"l be back in a bit!