I'm sort of panicking right now. I don't know what to think. I had a fight with my mom this morning - we're ok now, but I always feel like a horrible daughter afterward. I hate that I'm an adult and yet I feel like a child and I'm too scared to fly away. Not that I really could because I have too many obligations and responsiblities right now with school and work. It's like I have adult problems and yet I have a child's life. That doesn't make sense, but thats how I feel right now.
Christmas is a only month away which means year-end exams and final are even closer. I'm not ready; I feel like I'm going to fail. I can't concentrate on studying. I wish I could escape!
Food is ok, but I haven't been exercising and there's no skating for 4 days and of course Thanksgiving was yesterday...and I hate that I always feel that I have to eat less than my sister...
I'm so sorry for this post. It just came on so suddenly. I don't want to be all negative, but I have to get this off my chest. I know that God is there watching over me and He has done so much for me already, I just have to have faith.<3
Keep on pushing through!
ReplyDeleteIt's OK to be negative and get things out in the open - it is sssoooo much healthier than holding them in.. AS long as working through all the negative stuff happens soon.
I know what you mean about eating less than your sister, I used to feel the same thing with my mom. My nutritionist helped me look though at our height differences and age to let me realizes that "technically" I need more nutrition than she does. Our conversation ended with the fact that all of this information really didn't mean much because my mom has her own stomach, and I have mine. I need to listen to my body and not let what does or doesn't go into her's effect me. It's still hard not to watch and can be very triggering(my mom has her own form of an ED).
As Tucker reminded me - Run to God! He is there for you! *HUG*
I finally got out my Bible last night and read... It couldn't have been a more perfect chapter! If you have time check out Psalms (147: 3-5).
You are a victor!
Lily is right.....It is better to let all of your negative thoughts out instead of holding them on the inside.
ReplyDeleteDo not worry about sounding negative on your blog. It is where you can express all of your feelings (From very good to okay to very bad).
Hugs.
Never apologize for your posts, I used to do that all the time, it does no good at all. This is YOUR blog, say what you want to say. You can't be all happy all the time, sometimes it's okay to be negative, but then you move on.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I'm sorry you had a fight with your mom, but I'm glad that you're not dwelling on it. So, say what you want to say on your blog, let it all out. My blog is almost like sort of a diary to me, but at the end when I get done writing a post, I feel better because I've let it all out.
Have a great night, feel free to comment on my blog if you ever need to talk.
-Danielle